new blog

I have decided to begin a creation blog as well as trying to post in this one too. I LOVE creating things in my PSP program, and now that I have PS can't wait to get a good working knowledge of it. But, since I have been feeling creativly challenged lately, I am starting a blog called A Creation a Day so that I will have to tryt o come up with something to post every day. Hope you enjoy it as well. Thanks for Looking
Link to new blog:
http://acreationaday.blogspot.com/

How much can I take????

A mom on the group that I am in posted a message last night about fathers diciplineing. She said that she has a single parent mindset, and I can totally relate! I started to post a response, but did not really want to take over her post, so I thought I would come and vent here.
I have not been the happiest with where I am right now. I know that if I did not have kids, I would not be in this situation at all, but I stay for them. Well, last night C came home after being gone for a week with no calls or anything. We assumed that he was at his moms and working. That is at least until I went to his MySpace page and read that he has pretty much just been partying and hanging out for a week. Anyway there is no control on this child what so ever.
As soon as C got home though Dave's demeanor changed and everything that W did was wrong and he was getting yelled at. He was totally crushed and yes, I consoled him, because I know how he feels. It reminds me so much of how I grew up and I DO NOT want that for my children.
Well, then it turned to me and my parenting skills. W had a pretty big nap yesterday, so it was about 8:45 and he says that he should be in bed. Now mind you this all rests on me. I am the one that has to deal with him when he goes down, Dave does nothing. So, I got up and we went to bed. I wanted so bad to tell him that he had no room to tell me how to parent. I wanted to tell him that he needed to go deal with C, who by the way was supposed to be going to school today, and is still in bed.
Sometimes I just wish that I was stable enough financially to just leave. I know that I could go to Ohio, and have a place to go, but just don't know if that is the answer. I am just tired of walking on eggshells around my own house, and seeing the hurt in my childs eyes when he gets in trouble for being a child.

Okay vent over before I become a crying mess.....

Thank Goodness For...

surge protectors!!!!!!!!!!!! We just had a power surge I am assuming. All the electric in the house shut off for a matter of seconds and then came back on. Of course I was on the computer as usual when that happened and lost the blinkie that I was working on. No big deal just turn the computer on and keep going right?? Wrong. I went to turn the power back on and the only the monitor and modem worked. I tried a few different things and was about to give up hope when I decided to try one more thing. I unplugged the printer and plugged the computer into that outlet on the surge protector and it worked! Needless to say I was estatic LOL but again I say Thank Goodness for surge protectors!!!!!!!!!1

Bad Habits

Well, I started a terrible habit of giving Wyatt lolly pops. That had been all that the has wanted lately, so yesterday they were all gone even though we still have half a bag. Well we had many tantrums yesterday and I though that that would be the worst of it, but all he has asked for this morning has been "pops". I tell him that they are all gone and he screams at the top of his lungs. I try offering something else and nothing else works!! UGGH I am going to go crazy by the end of the day. LOL I guess maybe tomorrow will be better. I am just glad that Dave is at work today or else it would be ten times worse since he can't stand to hear the whining and begging.

Saturday Scrap

Well I finally finished my page from an earlier post. Here it is..

MEN!!

Dave started back to work tonight, finally!! He was the grumpiest person ever before he left. I hate that! I understand he does not want to go, but come on at least be decent here before you go.
Then, Candy wants me and the kiddos to come and visit for a 2 week stay in either Jan. or Feb. When I mentioned that today, as a prep because I really would like to go, he got all huffy. Now, Candy would be coming to get us, feeding us, and bringing us back. No need for a lot of money really other than some spending money. It would be a great vacation for both of us and I tried to point that out, but he does not want to hear it.
He has an issue with me having friends, I am coming to realize. Everytime that I become friends with someone, he tries to find a fault and then wear it out. It drives me crazy. He was fine with Candy until she wanted to come and get us. I don't know maybe he is just jealous because he would like to go to. If that is the case then he needs to save some money and figure it out so that we could go. Maybe he is worried too that I may go and not come back. Who knows, but tonight I am glad to have the house to myself and my babies!

Well, today is the day....

that they are pulling C from school. For those of you who don't know C is my boyfriends oldest son. He will be 18 in December. At the beginning of the school year they told him that he could quit when he turned 18 since he was only in the 10th grade this year. Well, last time I checked it was not December yet, but since he has already been suspended 3 times in the last two weeks and has missed over the 11 days of school allowed, he is getting pulled out today.
On an up note, he has been working since Friday with his step dad at some construction type job. He even went yesterday when the SD was sick. My only concern is how long is this going to last. Dave talked to his ex last night and told her that he could not take him to work all the time and she told him that he would have to talk to her husband about that. I looked right at Dave when he said that and said, NO C will have to talk to him about that. If he is adult enough to quit school then he is adult enough to find a way to work. Dave didn't like hearing it, but he actually agreed.
I am officially done keeping my mouth shut about this matter. Noone gets to sit at home all day except me LOL