How much can I take????

A mom on the group that I am in posted a message last night about fathers diciplineing. She said that she has a single parent mindset, and I can totally relate! I started to post a response, but did not really want to take over her post, so I thought I would come and vent here.
I have not been the happiest with where I am right now. I know that if I did not have kids, I would not be in this situation at all, but I stay for them. Well, last night C came home after being gone for a week with no calls or anything. We assumed that he was at his moms and working. That is at least until I went to his MySpace page and read that he has pretty much just been partying and hanging out for a week. Anyway there is no control on this child what so ever.
As soon as C got home though Dave's demeanor changed and everything that W did was wrong and he was getting yelled at. He was totally crushed and yes, I consoled him, because I know how he feels. It reminds me so much of how I grew up and I DO NOT want that for my children.
Well, then it turned to me and my parenting skills. W had a pretty big nap yesterday, so it was about 8:45 and he says that he should be in bed. Now mind you this all rests on me. I am the one that has to deal with him when he goes down, Dave does nothing. So, I got up and we went to bed. I wanted so bad to tell him that he had no room to tell me how to parent. I wanted to tell him that he needed to go deal with C, who by the way was supposed to be going to school today, and is still in bed.
Sometimes I just wish that I was stable enough financially to just leave. I know that I could go to Ohio, and have a place to go, but just don't know if that is the answer. I am just tired of walking on eggshells around my own house, and seeing the hurt in my childs eyes when he gets in trouble for being a child.

Okay vent over before I become a crying mess.....

Thank Goodness For...

surge protectors!!!!!!!!!!!! We just had a power surge I am assuming. All the electric in the house shut off for a matter of seconds and then came back on. Of course I was on the computer as usual when that happened and lost the blinkie that I was working on. No big deal just turn the computer on and keep going right?? Wrong. I went to turn the power back on and the only the monitor and modem worked. I tried a few different things and was about to give up hope when I decided to try one more thing. I unplugged the printer and plugged the computer into that outlet on the surge protector and it worked! Needless to say I was estatic LOL but again I say Thank Goodness for surge protectors!!!!!!!!!1

Bad Habits

Well, I started a terrible habit of giving Wyatt lolly pops. That had been all that the has wanted lately, so yesterday they were all gone even though we still have half a bag. Well we had many tantrums yesterday and I though that that would be the worst of it, but all he has asked for this morning has been "pops". I tell him that they are all gone and he screams at the top of his lungs. I try offering something else and nothing else works!! UGGH I am going to go crazy by the end of the day. LOL I guess maybe tomorrow will be better. I am just glad that Dave is at work today or else it would be ten times worse since he can't stand to hear the whining and begging.

Saturday Scrap

Well I finally finished my page from an earlier post. Here it is..

MEN!!

Dave started back to work tonight, finally!! He was the grumpiest person ever before he left. I hate that! I understand he does not want to go, but come on at least be decent here before you go.
Then, Candy wants me and the kiddos to come and visit for a 2 week stay in either Jan. or Feb. When I mentioned that today, as a prep because I really would like to go, he got all huffy. Now, Candy would be coming to get us, feeding us, and bringing us back. No need for a lot of money really other than some spending money. It would be a great vacation for both of us and I tried to point that out, but he does not want to hear it.
He has an issue with me having friends, I am coming to realize. Everytime that I become friends with someone, he tries to find a fault and then wear it out. It drives me crazy. He was fine with Candy until she wanted to come and get us. I don't know maybe he is just jealous because he would like to go to. If that is the case then he needs to save some money and figure it out so that we could go. Maybe he is worried too that I may go and not come back. Who knows, but tonight I am glad to have the house to myself and my babies!

Well, today is the day....

that they are pulling C from school. For those of you who don't know C is my boyfriends oldest son. He will be 18 in December. At the beginning of the school year they told him that he could quit when he turned 18 since he was only in the 10th grade this year. Well, last time I checked it was not December yet, but since he has already been suspended 3 times in the last two weeks and has missed over the 11 days of school allowed, he is getting pulled out today.
On an up note, he has been working since Friday with his step dad at some construction type job. He even went yesterday when the SD was sick. My only concern is how long is this going to last. Dave talked to his ex last night and told her that he could not take him to work all the time and she told him that he would have to talk to her husband about that. I looked right at Dave when he said that and said, NO C will have to talk to him about that. If he is adult enough to quit school then he is adult enough to find a way to work. Dave didn't like hearing it, but he actually agreed.
I am officially done keeping my mouth shut about this matter. Noone gets to sit at home all day except me LOL

PSP 9

I recently started using PSP (Paint Shop Pro) 9. I am actually starting to really like it.
I have also started trying my hand at digital scrapbooking. While looking through some scrapping sites I came across a PSP tutorial on how to make a lot of the elements and pages myself.
Throughout this blog, all of the pictures that I have posted are all things that I have made through the tutorial.
I still have 10 tutorials to go until I have a completed template to stick my pictures in. I have really enjoyed spending some time learning not only scraping, but also some of the neat elements of PSP9.

Todays Purchase

Well, today is the day that the movie Cars come out. We have had it reserved since the beginning of last month since it is Wy Wy's favorite thing at the moment. He likes it so much in fact, that he even know that when he hears the Lonestar song from the movie, that he should be seeing Lightning somewhere LOL.
Downfall to this is that within the next few days it is all that he is going to want to watch, but hey that means some free time LOL. I guess that I will know all the words to it by next week and the music too. That is what tends to stick in my head better is the music.
Well, off to enjoy my last few hours of Cars free tv for a few days LOL

Random thoughts

WHy did blogger lose my post from the weekend? Oh well LOL

Why is having a prescription called into a pharmacy such an ordeal?

I have to go grocery shopping today and am dreading it, although it could be much worse.

Why won't Friday hurry up and get here so that Dave will be back at work??

I am ready for Thanksgiving dinner already, LOL I just made our reservations for our dinner. MMMM

Maybe next year I will make my own TD dinner.

I need to go take a shower so I will be ready to go when the prescription finally comes in.

I wonder how many people really read my blog....HMMMMMM

DSL....

Well, they actually turned on our DSL yesterday after many previous delays. I had to break down and call them though to make sure that it would be activated yesterday, and at first he told me that it was going to be delayed again. I was ready to give him an ear full when he came back on to tell me that we were ready to go.
It is nice. I can go site to site faster, and it downloads so much faster, but the main thing now is there is a delay when I type. I am sure it is something easy to fix, but I have not mustered up the streangth to call yet LOL yes I am having a lazy moment, but get ready moms, because now I can scrap to my hearts content and put you all through the misery of having to look at them ROFL.

You know you love it ;)

Scared silly..

Ok after yesterdays post I decided that I would watch Ghost Hunter last night. I am a huge fan of these shows that set out to disprove their own evidence and don't just overreact when the capture a particle of dust on film.
Well, I was sitting there watching a rerun from last week and half way through the show I had to turn it off. First they started in a family's home where their daughter was having experiences. They caught some really spooky sounds on the DVR and that was about it. Enough for me to have said see ya, buit they were happy about having a ghost there.
Then they went to an old prison. In the lead up story, they had some other investigators talking about things that they had witnessed. One was a picture of a shadow person and the other appeared to be an actual ghost moving around although it looked like a transparent person. I wathced them set up and then had to turn it off because I was starting to scare myself. I could just picture a shadow person standing on the porch if I looked out there at night. Crazy I know, but enough for me to say no more and watch a rerin of Home Improvement instead.



Don't worry, all of my blogs are not going to be about ghosts. :)

Is there such things as Ghosts?

With Halloween having just passed, there have been tons of shows on exploring this question. I love to watch these shows, as I myself do not really know what to believe. I believe that there is an afterlife and that we live on after we die, but can we really stay and "haunt" a location or person?
Last night I watched Chris Angel Mindfreak. He took several people to Amargosa Opera House and Hotel in Death Valley. He gave them a little history and told them that this place had the record for the most paranormal contacts or recordings. He then let them explore the hotel. They all went to room 34, which was not mentioned previously, and had eerie feelings there.
As the show went on, they went as a group to that room and then went out onto the porch where Chris was "told" the name Mary by this little girl that they were investigating. They then had a "seance" where the table shook violently and fell over. Later they all sat around another table and caught a glimpse of this girl on camera.Now, Chris Angel is pretty amazing in general, so I am not sure how much of this he had control over.
In all the other shows they give a lot of back history as well, so my question is, how much of it is real and how much is just power of suggestion. When they "see" things, are they really capturing a ghost on camera, or is it a shadow or dust and they are making it appear to be what they want you to see by telling you that is what is there?
I will continue to watch these shows, and scream along with them and get chills as I think that I see things, but I will still have this question in my mind, Are ghosts real, or is it all in our heads?